Relapse

Hi, my name is Meili and I'm an addict.

I am addicted to staying up late. Not just midnight, but 4 am kinda late. I've struggled with it my whole life and this year I decided enough was enough. I had hit rock bottom. I've always known that it was a problem but I think I was in denial about how bad it was. I realized how badly it was affecting my health and my relationships. So I made getting sleep my one and only New Year's resolution. I can't say I have completely changed my sleep hygiene but I've been doing better. I was doing better.... hahaha! I am being totally melodramatic but it is true. I really do think I am addicted and I relapsed...

I hung out with some new girls in my ward. We went dancing until 1:30 one night, and then played poker until 1:00 the next night.... and well it's been a downward spiral every night from there, until Saturday night.  I stayed up until 4:00 am watching the bachelorette. The bachelorette, people! Of all things to stay up so late for. Yes. I've relapsed.... And I need help. An intervention....

Why I am a minimalist

I think I'm kinda cool, calling myself a minimalist.... But funny because I'm not really a real minimalist. I still have a lot of junk. hahaha! but I also get that it is a process and well.... I'm still working on it. I'm still decluttering. Sespite my goal to remove one item a day from my space, I still miss a lot of days. Last night I decided to declutter one drawer which turned into decluttering 5 drawers and some old school work from my undergrad. it's hard throwing away papers that I spent hours and hours on!
But I read this article today and it pretty my describes why i've decided to be a minimalist.

you should read it :) just sayin... :) hehe

http://www.becomingminimalist.com/2012/07/09/own-less-stuff-pursue-your-passions-finally/

I love decluttering! it makes my heart sing! :)

Oh! and good news! I cancelled my match.com account. again..... hahahah! how many times have I said that?! hahah! But because I am being more picky about who I spend my precious time dating, I realized that I wasn't going on nearly enough dates to justify it. It feels good. And it feels good to have so many weekends and nights available to do what I really want. I realize I was so worried about not finding someone that I was willing to date anyone in the hopes that I could convince myself that they were that someone. anyays. there is the update on my pathetic dating life. hehe