In light of recent events, being asked out by a total hottie that in turn was actually interested in me, later to find out he is not lds, I have been thinking about dating lately. Okay let's call it what it is.  I've been banging my head in frustration.

The majority of guys that ask me out or show any interest are either 1.not lds 2.not active in church or 3.have personal issues they are dealing with (drugs, alcohol, pornography, etc).  Naturally my brain wants to understand in it's entirety why mormon guys don't like me. Not that it would make any difference so I don't know why I want to know so bad. And I'm not talking about any mormon guys because the few mormon guys that do ask me out are usually kinda goobers.... I'm talking about just a normal regular old guy that is lds too.

here is what I've come up with:
-they are more picky than I thought and I'm not skinny enough, namely in the ghetto booty area, or something else along those lines (like my nose is too big or my legs are too white. hahah!)
-I'm not churchy enough. As in I don't aspire to be the next relief society president and despite my efforts we struggle with daily family scripture study, etc.
-I am too old or there are too many other better options, as there are twice as many girls than guys in my singles ward, all under the age of 26
-the fact that I am divorced turns them off
-they don't want to date or marry someone with a kid. (I can't say I don't understand this one, but it does suck because I would hope someone would see some good in my heart and maybe even see it as a positive thing.)

yeah that does seem like a lot of negatives that are against me... haha!

Just sayin' it makes staying committed to dating only lds guys really hard. Normally I would go out with a guy if I like him and in the past have dated a couple guys and later discovered they were inactive or whatever. but I really do want to date someone that is lds, that i like, that likes me back,  that accepts me the way I am, that is patient (a must), we share a connection, doesn't have any addictions, has the same goals as I do in terms of marriage, family and the future. is that so much to ask?! hahahha!

So I decided to get honest with myself about the guys I go out with and find out where they stand on that stuff, so as to avoid getting into a relationship that would lead nowhere, and only date active lds guys. but it has proven to be a little more difficult than I though it would be. apparently I don't appeal to mormon guys...