eeek! It's been so long. I guess I haven't had a lot to complain about and that's what I usually do here..... hahahaha!

Maybe the other reason I haven't posted recently is because I started dating someone (same guy I mentioned here and here, and prompted this post.) and he found out about this blog! So I don't know how to write when I know others are reading it! oh well. I guess I can still be totally honest until I don't like him anymore and am fretting about ending it... Kidding!

My only thoughts right now are, maybe it is possible....
Possible to meet someone that seems so perfect, possible to like someone enough to want to spend all my time with them, possible to meet someone that accepts me the way I am, possible to meet someone that I feel so comfortable and safe with, possible to feel peace about being with one person.

All things that I always thought were impossible. So many times in dating I've thought, "what am I willing to over look?" Like I had to make a choice between someone who loves and accepts me, or someone who is lds and has integrity and the same values. Never did I think it was possible to have both at the same time...

And there is another part of me, perhaps my ego where my fears live, that is afraid that it will end. Because I know others have felt this way about me and I didn't reciprocate. I feel so at peace with this person and this relationship. Why do I allow myself to doubt that I deserve it, that I could be so lucky?

Feel the fear and do it anyway.