So this blog started out as my own dirty, secret blog that I would write from the darkest parts of my demented, messed up head and the depths of my hardened, black heart.

But I'm not very good at keeping secrets about myself for too long and I guess I honestly never intended it to never be read. I just didn't think it would happen so soon. Anyways, I digress.... And I know a few people read it. It is on the "interwebs" after all!  So I am just going to proceed writing as I normally do; freely, without any thought of the fact that there may be and probably is a different and healthier way of viewing things, knowing that I am a multifaceted person, that more often than not has several conflicting feelings and thoughts all in the same given moment, and that tomorrow I may feel completely different. I am a girl after all! And I reserve the right to change my mind whenever I want.:) These are just the ramblings from my heart as they are.I am taking this new voice that I have worked so hard to uncover and I am running with it. :) Enjoy. Or don't...