puppies and kitties and joy

Remember when as a kid all you wanted was a new puppy or kitty. And you swore you would never want anything else ever again. you don't even care if you get anything else for christmas....

It's easy to think after this big hurdle, after this trial, after this big mountain everything will be better. we will finally be able to do all those things we've dreamed of doing. It will solve all of my problems.

Believe me, I lived this for 4+ years. When I was married it was always after I graduate, after my husband graduates, after this big raise next year, and then after pharmacy school.... then... then we can finally be happy and enjoy our lives but tomorrow is promised to no one. Since then, I admit I have at times thought if I got married I would be happy. that is all I want. That is all I'll ask for this Christmas, I swear! Well... no matter where you are there will be something more to achieve, something more that you will want, something else that could cause unhappiness, that could make you wish for the grass that is greener on the other side of the fence.

I can only imagine after I finally met the man of my dreams I would want a cute little house that I can make a home, and to finally be able to cook dinners in my bright little kitchen. And don't forget the baby. After I meet the man of my dreams I will want a baby. And family vacations to the beach... The real trick is choosing peace and joy now and finding the beauty in the journey.